We don't fear silence.

We fear what silence forces us to hear.

We fear how we talk to ourselves. The noise inside our head that overrides intuition. The voice controlling the narrative. The one we obey even when we know better.

Sitting at my desk in January, staring at a blank calendar for 2026, I felt my chest tighten. Clean slate? More like a glaring reminder that I had no idea what I was doing. The noise showed up right on cue, talking to me like a disappointed parent: You're not good enough. Not smart enough. Who do you think you are making plans when you can't even figure out your life?

So I did something radical. I told Bitch to shut up. Yes, I name my voice Bitch.

This took longer than I'd like to admit. But eventually, the noise stopped. And what I found in its place wasn't peace. It was the truth I'd been avoiding.

That noise wasn't protecting me. It was keeping me obedient—following everyone else's advice, everyone else's blueprint, everyone else's definition of success. I wasn't listening to my own intuition. I was too busy trying to sound like someone else.

I spent most of 2025 in coaching circles, chasing the mythical $10K month like it was the Holy Grail. I duplicated frameworks that worked for other people, convinced that if I just copied hard enough, their success would rub off on me. Meanwhile, what had been burning inside me for a decade? Ignored. Buried. Treated like it didn't matter.

I abandoned my own training—over ten years of it—to chase someone else's goldmine.

The answer was Gene Keys. A system I'd been formally trained in. One I'd translated into my own language. One I'd built an entire practice around. I had it as an offering in my business, but I barely mentioned it. Too busy promoting what was trendy instead of what was true.

I'd buried what was mine to chase what was theirs.

Silence forced me to hear that I'd been drowning out my own voice—not with Netflix or Instagram, but with blueprints handed to me by other successful people. Blueprints that took me further and further from who I actually am.

Silence doesn't force us to hear our fears. It forces us to hear what we already know.

This content is for educational purposes and is not a substitute for professional mental health treatment. If you're experiencing concerning symptoms, please consult with a qualified mental health professional.